monthly reflection

In our daily lives we all learn lessons in one way or another. As a student we get to meet so many scenarios and we have to face them. My month so dar has been good but there's always a problem, anyways i had to cope with school drama, the fact that i don't have friends and i also find it difficult to make friends which is one of my biggest challenges anyways I'm used to being alone.

You've got a question for me right? I gotcha 👌 so I will answer even though you didn't ask the question: having friends is every child's social happiness but guess what not every have these friends and when they are alone, they are seen as weirdos or people with mental issues but we ought to know that they weren't like that because most people have issues relating to their social life but my is bad parenting but I'm not going to talk about others problem am I? Nah!! However my parents are so strict that from childhood I was so scared to share my problem with them and I rather kept it to myself. When I tried making friends because outside of my house felt like a different would full of loneliness which my little self didn't consider as anxiety and most annoying I get pushed to do things I really do not want to do but as an African I've got no choice, I had to do everything. One last story haha x : as the first child from childhood, raking care of people became my hobby tho I wasn't comfortable but I thought that's the reason I was brought into this world. I cared and loved so much that I wouldn't even consider anything wrong I apologise unnecessary and give my heart both to known and unknown but my dream were to actually know these people but how can I with the kind of parents I've got . Life was too difficult. 

I loved  someone with my heart but it turned out she didn't feel the same way and blocked me but that didn't tear me because I was used to things like this, so  I learnt not to force things rather who ever loves me will be for me. Secondly, I learnt to keep my problems to myself or rather talk to God about it because no one ever understands what you go through no matter how hard you explain and it never brought solution to the problems rather xame worse in the nicest way. Thirdly which is like my core; I learnt to believe in myself no matter what and engage in what I love most and you know what? I really do not care what anyone thinks about it and I had to distance myself from family members because everyone is too invested in my life like it's all ours🙄 brooo I want a life that is more peaceful not one that is controlling and tormenting like I ain't got time for family drama so one of my biggest goals is too make myself happy though I've not got any resources but in my little way I ensure that my brain is on the right track . I also want to stop procrastinating because I'm so sick of it.  It makes so ugh 😑 anyways I'm giving it my best. Lastly I have a wish and I hope it comes through 💕 . 

I did so many things I loved; as a disco lover I did so many dance trends, played music, went on a run, read a book, and slept haha x .

I believe so much in myself and I hope everyone out there does same x. 

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